Save me was such a draining track to write. I went into every desperate moment I ever had (there have been many) times when all I could say was just “save me” so helpless, so unable to move. Frustrated at every turn. Seemingly a total victim of circumstance. Everywhere i looked was dark and frightening. Every door I tried was shut, every solution drained away.
Though they have been the darkest times, they have often been the most creative. When I had no choice but to stand still and be quiet it becomes possible to hear, to assess, to re-configure, to rest.
Healing is such a painful process. Even though I knew at some point I would get better and that my wounds would get better. Being in pain is not comfortable. But being broken is totally disabling. So healing is good, but ....